I can't believe myself what I found written down here

 I did completely forget this blog. 

I won't edit what is here written, even if it looks like it had been written by a completely different person. 

Well, not so completely different, 2021, living in England (When this blog was created, I was living in Rosario, 2021, feeling a non recognized romance. A great summary just did. I had fallen in love, and I didn't notice this. The other person fell in love too, but he didn't recognise it either ) but still writing. 

This year I'm writing a diary. 

Those who have done this know that writing a diary is more like playing the gardener's role of your year. Here the role is to keep, maintain that year written down to make that year live forever. Every story in the year will be emotionally worded transduced into letters. So the entire year is a memory. 

Good. Let's get to the point.

My eyes were wandering until an object caught their attention. It was a measure marked mixing plastic bowl. 

Focusing on the marks, I saw the concave part marked in a non-even design. Which naturally triggered me to think, well, yes, this is not a cylinder, so here the volume is not h*(Pi*D2/4), I mean, it is, but D is not constant. If you want, you can say that h=a*square(D)2 at the very bottom where is the most concave part and then yes, proportional where the bowl is more close to a cylindrical type shape.

But I've noticed the cylindrical part still had a concavity, and I start reckoning the error. After that tried to recreate how that scale was calculated. And which scales, errors are considered in their recipes. I imagine they use this kind of instruments. Or I hope to, for the sake of the recipe. 

Then I realised my thoughts. How many minutes I spent doing mathematical calculations, and what for? 

What do people think? I'm constantly asking myself about "the way I am living", and my ambitions are "the right ones" if they are really related to the person I am or the person I want to be. 

Do people think about their lives in this way? Yes, they do. All of them? No, not all of them.

I see how this kind of questioning is reserved only for those who have freedom in their lives. For those that their duty is to be themselves. We, the free thinkers, we can be seen as remorselesly selfish people. Self-centred. Of course we are. We have been clever enough to not to be duty bound to do anything that implies another human being. 

And we won't until a good reason arises and that good reason is aligned to the way we want to live and our ambitions. This is self love and respect or healthy selfishness if you prefer.."