FROM MERE CAPRICE

The other day I received a letter from my actual employer. Let's say that happened on the 26th of July, this year 2021. 

Dear Diary,

                    Today, 27th of July, I realised that, the main reason why I've never achieved anything spectacular in my life. 

                    A few days ago, a letter slipped under my door. The sender was my employer. The letter had been written on the 22nd of July, a week earlier: (after transcription the letter, I noticed the usefulness in sending this news by post and not an email that can be easily forwarded) 

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PRIVATE & CONFIDENTIAL

Ms VICTORIA HOLT

Dousters, ..

West Sussex

22nd July 2021

Dear Victoria,

Interim Bonus Payment - July 2021

As you are aware, your interim July bonus payment is subject to your score following a review of your personal objectives for 2021. 

We are pleased to confirm that you received a score of 97% against your objectives which equates to a bonus payment of £386.00; this will be paid to you during the July 2021 payroll. 

The company appreciates your efforts so far this year and we look forward to continuing working with you in what should be a successful 2021. 

Yours sincerely, 

A printed signature 

xxx xxxx

HR Manager

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That's half of a month of the place I rent for live and -work, now-.

This uninhabitable world. 

But going back to the ugly truth freshly discovered...! I've never achieved anything spectacular in my life because I make decisions on a whim 👶 and this is the price of the Caprice 😀. Looking for this word, I found this quote from an apparently famous writer: 

Fron which I found an explanation that I do concur.." NO WOMAN DRESSES BELOW HERSELF FROM MERE CAPRICE

https://forum.wordreference.com/threads/no-woman-dresses-below-herself-from-caprice.3360549/"

{The only reason for a woman to be poorly dressed is that she's too poor to afford nice clothes} Maybe that was true at that time. 

Now in this [ʌn.ɪnˈhæb.ɪ.tə.bəl/] world, we try to convince ourselves that we don't need to dress well to be considered valuables which is a mere truth for poor people. 

Horsham stoned

18th May, Horsham, West Sussex County

While working today at home (as I'm doing since February 2020), I firmly decided to go for a walk today. But I didn't want to go to the park. No. How many times I've gone to the park in 2021? 0.

Today is the second day after the last easy of the restrictions. ”

Step 3 COVID-19: 17 May 2021”

The next step is freedom. Stolen freedom. After this, people will have a chance to realise how much local shops are important and the importance of contributing to their business. 

I realise now I was thrilled with the idea of coming along. I dressed up at the lunch break to finish work and go out ejected as an Elon musk's rocket to Mars.

The clock counted 30 minutes after 4, and I declared my workday had finished.

I completed my make-up 😘, dragged three times the joint ”love your smile," and grabbed an umbrella before going out.

I've walked toward Dorsten square. I saw the 23 bus; a stranger was walking at my side and rushed toward 23s. I start running 🏃 as well; the bus stopped for me at the junction. This happens just in the countryside. 

The stranger didn't take the 23, just me. Once on the bus, I had a little fight against the natural entangle of wired headphones, the mask, the wet umbrella. 

I just left the umbrella at the newspaper's box to touch in before having a seat and remember again where the umbrella is when I am getting wet at Horsham's Street watching the heroic 23 going away.

I'm glad I gave up on the red fake leather jacket, and I took this hooded jacket instead. 

Typical of my behavior when I'm stoned, I walked in the right direction. 

I walked into a free license paki shop (the closest shop to a drugstore), hoping they could provide an umbrella.

How do you dare to open your doors without an umbrella ☂️ to sell? This is 🇬🇧! 

As touched by a magic wand, an umbrella appeared in front of me when I went out. It was lying down on the pavement. As Sagittarius ♐ rising sun, I always count on the blessing of Papa Zeus.

In fact, I could have stumbled into it if I hadn't taken it. Papa knows me well 8)

I was getting soaked quickly, so without a second thought, I opened it. 

Miracles don't exist. The umbrella was damaged, but I used it as it was. 

Such a scene. 

I could barely open that umbrella to cover my head. It was something to pass the heat of battle. 

In my sight was a building construction in progress that I used as a heavenly shelter. 

I dropped off the broken umbrella and locked in g maps where to go. "A block" forward the same street, *east street* it showed a coffee shop. Or at least is what I've commanded Google to look for me. 

It was a *Dessert brand type* a Rockafella's dessert parlour. I had a Hot chocolate and a long conversation with Maida.

Then walked until the suspiciously new castle -now Bill's restaurant- to finally walk into a bar where I order a beer at The 🐻 Bear's and chips. I had to go out for the chips and get them in as these people don't eat when they drink. 

How Neptune squares neptunes literally, fucks you.

First, please read https://askastrology.com/neptune-square-neptune/. 

 How did this person fool me? Instead of saying it is a mystery, I would say it was because of this transit, Neptune square Neptune. 

There is no relief but giving up... in the author words, " If Neptune squares a point, it brings growth through loss or the need to surrender and have faith; it brings the challenge of faith. " My Neptune is in the first house. Ugh! This means this is something related to my personality.. no, I would say this is something related to I START THINGS that is also the first house. 

Today is the last day where Mars, Now transiting VII house, opposes the magic Neptune in the natal in the I house. 

          Mars opposes Neptune (Transit text Poppe Forecast)

You may discover that you have been betrayed by someone very dear to you at this time, as deceptions can be found at the highest levels of work, government or domestic life. 

Now I am experiencing a Grand Cross, so I will experience a considerable tension between my personality's contrasting aspects. This lead to feeling pulled in multiple directions, which is discombobulating and creates internal struggle that leads to great frustration that spills over into life. At least it is mutable. 

I just came from the post office, this situation has never been so clear as it is now. 

So Ok, I lift his spirit up in both ways. "Todo entra con paciencia y saliva, decía mi abuela". ...in several ways indeed. 

How long he will enjoy this victory? It may take a minute to create a post on LinkedIn to share my experience in the first job I got in England. 

But who cares? Yes, he deserves it, but I'm not going to take more shit from this turned-around-turtle which is the nickname I created for him after our first passion night xD

I came what I wrote the day after and I thought OH SO MUCH DRAMA that fits nicely in a fire moon as Victoria's. This is typical behaviour of a fire moon, "the day" is explosion. The day after, nahhh it is not so serious.." It's me again doing sex teaching.." xD

I love my unique way in giving me a fuck everything in one/two days scheme..

:)

I can't believe myself what I found written down here

 I did completely forget this blog. 

I won't edit what is here written, even if it looks like it had been written by a completely different person. 

Well, not so completely different, 2021, living in England (When this blog was created, I was living in Rosario, 2021, feeling a non recognized romance. A great summary just did. I had fallen in love, and I didn't notice this. The other person fell in love too, but he didn't recognise it either ) but still writing. 

This year I'm writing a diary. 

Those who have done this know that writing a diary is more like playing the gardener's role of your year. Here the role is to keep, maintain that year written down to make that year live forever. Every story in the year will be emotionally worded transduced into letters. So the entire year is a memory.